Ready.....OK!! where shud i begin,(for the second time. I sit at this computer being the only person left in a japnese office to fend for myself. To gamabtte at the thought of being all one, but yet still be expected to portray the " i amso happy genki foreigner". you know the one that can be laughed at, the one that has alot of enegry,the one thet everyone expectsto always be happy. In japan is called "genki foreigner" elsewhere, well else where what would you call it? puppet,clown or an idiot. not a typical everyday idot but you know the type of idiot that is an idiot or seen as an idiot because there is a lack of understanding of what they represent, culturally.
So i ask again where should i start, i'll begin again by sayin am s-t-u-k. I refuse to accept the fact that i may be slightlty depressed, and just stressed!!!!! stressed because i sit and write this blog i also have to decide whether or not to leave this bubble country and everything it represents. Do i stay, earn more momey and pretend to speak japanese? Or should i leave go home, see friends and be me! But, the BUT is goin home, what t the moment does London have offer me. I'll come back after two years of "teaching English" and "internationlising" and isolate community, which attempts to play a world role by means of security council membership, but still refuses to grant citzenship to foreign naionals and still finds it hard to understand that japanese like any other language can be learnd and spoken fleuntly by non nationals.
Back to the subject, if i go home what do i tell my future employers, can i speak japnese ummmm "arigato", "konniciwa" and what was the other one "baka" and "yuparatai"? is that enough? oh and how did i internationalise or teach my students about the big world, ummm, ummmm "well i taught them bingo, they know about marmite, curry as the main Britsih food and they know the differece between continets and countries." But can they differentaite betweeen "rite and lite" ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm, ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
well i tried, how do i hide the truth (which am sure my future employers would know) that teaching English is just a youth excuse to repeat unilife but this time with money.
People of whatever and whereever how do i get out of being S-T-U-K. Stressed,?,undefined,? (I'll come back with the other two words if and when i know them)